My ambition--My dream

I believe that everyone have their own ambition in their heart,so do i~ I have lots of ambitions in my life but all are seem like hardly to achieve.Well,my first ambition before i joined modeling is i wish i can owned a Bridal's boutique or work at there because i like to see girl's wearing the gown and smile happiness.. It is very sweet for me because get marry is the most happiness thing in life with our soulmate.But,it's too bad that worker of bridal's boutique need to have make up or shooting experience or certificate,so i fail already because i'm not interested in those thing but i just like to help couple arrange their wedding matter.About my second ambition,i wish i can be a famous model after i joined modeling.But,with my height->165,i can just be the part time model because usually fulltime model need to have 168cm and above.I consider a shorty among them,so my second ambition also gone.Sigh~~ My third ambition is become a singer or actress.Sound funny right? But i do like to sing and like to act in front of my friends,really!But,i'm lack of confidence because i scare i lose the contest and laugh by people,sometimes i got the rush to join those competition but i'm not borned to act or sing because just are my hobby and i never learn before so i think my quality and the chance to win is quite low.But i promise myself i'll step out my first step because i don't wish to make my life regret although it's impossible to win. My last ambition is... hehe.. abit shy and funny to say out because it is just a day dreaming. I wish to become a rich woman who married a rich guy,then i can enjoy my life everyday and no need to worry about money everytimes but.. this is every girl's dream and if i can get a rich husband,maybe i lost many thing like time to spend with him(because he need to earn money),he might be flirt(guy's natural being once he is rich),or he might be like to spend money without thinking or else we might be kidnap.. (i think my imagination is over,because i think too much already.. =P ). Well,this ambition might be never happen because i think nowdays girl should also earn their own money and don't let guy look down. So,i hope that at least 1 of my ambition will come true (if i'm lucky,but i don't think so... sigh)... But,only ambition can us put more effort and motivation to pursuit our goal or dream.. I wish all of my friends' ambition also will be achieve one day... =)

HelpleSS~~~

This fri i went back to my hometown.. i called one of my buddy... I felt so helpless to her,because she was not selected by Local Uni but her result really not bad for me,CGPA got 2.6.. All her hope gone because she came from a poor family.Her family condition not allowed her to go for any Uni or College unless she apply the loan.I asked her joined with me at TARC or else go UTAR before,but she rejected me because if she join TARC,she can't proceed to ICSA at UK,and if she join UTAR now,she don't have enough money to pay for the first sem fees(ptptn loan also can only apply after you join the UNi o Coll) because she didn't ask money from her parent,she also rarely asked for pocket money when she studied at secondary.She worked part time during every end of years.I wish i can help her but i can't because i rarely save my money and i'm quite spendless sometimes.The one which i can only help is try to help her find more information about which UNI she can afford to enter.According to her condition,i do feel sad and disapointed on some of my rich friends.They never appreciate how lucky they are bacause they are able to enter those private and famous Uni like taylors,sunway and inti.They just think that study at there just a part of job to do for their parent see,just think that want to give up or else try their best to spend their parent money as much as they can.WHY?? This world is so reality and unfair.Those who wish to study but couldn't afford the fees and living expenses people just can only stop study or else working to save their fees.. "No pain No gain"!! But it is really unfair.All of her friends(including me) now already went to study but just left her alone at hometown,i can understand her feeling now,so lost,so sad and also lonely.So,i hope everyone who read this blog can appreciate what you have now,try ur best in ur studies and don't just think that it is just forced by ur parent.I admit i'm playful and like to go shopping sometimes,but i also got the serious side because i try my best during exam and the effort i put on all are because i like study,so don't judge me if by my behaviour sometimes.I can be playful and also serious in studies because i wish my parent proud on me.This is the only way i can pay to them now because they will be happy once i got a better result.
Kam ba teh friend,i wish you good luck in future,hope that you can proceed your study as soon as possible... I'm proud on you~ cheeRs~!

My lecturer "S"~~

Well.. It has been one and a half month already for my college life. I feel that actually i do learn nothing here except english.Because english sudject have been divided for two sub subject,one is English Language and one is English Communication. Our EL lecturer Ms Pauline really really is a best and nice lecturer for me because she look gentle and kind with everyone,maybe coz of her age are near to us so she is able to understand us..(but,this thursday,she look weird and look like very sad,this make all of us very concern about her and really scare she cry so i hope that she is all right now,and always stay cheerful and happy .. Ms~ ).
About Ec,Mr Loi..His first impression for me is his attire,look like a Good Boy because of his hair style,comb his hair in super TIDY style but his pronunciate in english really make me impress because he can speak in correctly and clear pronunciation and it's really tough for me to try so.Although i know our two beloved english lecturer are for our own good,but... we also need for some break because our class mostly are from morning untill evening so when the time we back home,we are already exhausted.Revision time can only do on weekend because of others subject's tutorial question have to do,eg.. have to minus our coursework marks for 10 marks if everytimes we didn't do the tough questions,summore if we give the wrong answer we still need to let her nag and nag,with her fierce and scary eyes sight~~ Although she said answer wrong is never mind but i think is still the same because our ending still is the same.. Poor life we have~~( i think you all know who and which subject i mentioned,shh... don't tell her,i scare of her NAGGING).
Next,the cute lecturer we have is our MBO lecturer,Ms Anura,she have a loud voice and always ask us " oK? " after her explaination,if we didn't answer her "Ok" then she will start shouting "Ok or not OK?" actually i was wondering that even we are not really ok but still forced to answer ok,because i think most of my friends also don't know what she teach about,seem like we learned before but still get very blur in this subject.SIgh~~
About our Economic lecturer,i think he have a good talent on acting because he like to act something funny in front us,although sometimes are out of topic with econimic but at least he is TRYING his best to make us laugh,so.. i do appreciate it much~
Our BA lecturer also very very CUTE because he always talk with lots of cold joke and getting high with himself after his joke.. but,sometimes i'm really wonder why he always so energetic and have so many cold joke to share with..(eg,if someone answer him "where GOT?"then he sure replied "GOD is at the heaven".. fainted!!) but he is a friendly and kind lecturer..
About HE lecturer,he is the first lecturer and first subject which i totally get no idea in what he teach about..Summore he said that wait untill before final exam just give us notes,but he don't know we all got no idea in what he teach about now and really really lost.. SIgh~sigh~
Hmm.. i don't know what is my ending if this blog is read by our leacturers,but it is all from my heart.. hehe~ so if any inconvenient here,i do appologise... sorry ya~ don't blame me,this is blog but not coursework.. no minus marks~~ =P

My Second House~!

I'm sure that most us know that tarc students are renting room outside right? So do i.
Well,i'm now sharing a middle room with my ex- secondary schoolmate .In my house they are 5 guys and only me and my roomate are girls .Shocking right?? I also can't accept it in the beginning because it was seems like dangerous to stay with so many guys but i had no choice because my good friend left me and went to mmu study so i was forced to move in with this hometown friend of mine.

This is my first time i was to leave my hometown and stay with friends. At first,i was scared that i can't get use to it because i was scared that i might have conflict with my housemates. When i first moved in,i felt that my housemate (guys) were so cool because none of them talk to me. My roomate haven't come back from kl at that time, so i was forced to stay alone and i was so lonely in KL.

My first impression of this "New House" is that it is toO meSsy~! Maybe mostly are guys staying here so they RARELY clean their place. Suddenly,i felt a little regret for renting this room although it is quite convenient and safe.

Luckily,god didn't treat me so bad. My "cool housemates"finally melted their icey mountain and talked to me.I found out that actually 3 of them are from my hometown and 1 of them are my neighbour who staying the next row of my house. I found that actually they are very friendly or maybe too friendly and passionate because we just knew each other not too long ago and we can talk funny stuff just like old friends would do. Maybe because all of us are so talkative, i think~

=P The view from my balcony are nice because i can see KLCC and KL TOWER everyday and sometimes if i am lucky enough i also can see firework from Titiwangsa ( eYe oN MalaYsia).
But.. there are pro and cons in between though.I got a group of new housemate and roomate but i have to wash the toilet once a week,sweep all floor when i free,boiled the water,and sometimes even throw the rubbish ( sound like maid,right??). aihZz,no choice.. if i don't do these housework,i think i will easily get sick because the air in Kl are full of DUST even if u clean your house everyday. But these houseworks,can train me to be a good housewife in future because i don't do much housework when i am my hometown,i depend on my mum to do it~ Mummy..so sorry here~! =P

There are 3 of my housemate are taking art and design. Their drawing and designing skill are so wonderful. I admire themso much sometimes, because their main job are only keep on drawing and colouring but my job is keep memorize notes and rush for assignments. (sad) And my roomate is a very kind girl,she always shares her titbits and she is able to tolerate with me.But i got a small littlecomplain. It is because she has a big bear bear and she always hug it when she sleep,sometimes the bear bear will accidently be at my bed... fuNny right? =P

One important thing is that i am scared that i can't concentrate on my studies here because guys in my house can be too "noisy and talkative". I used to study in a silent and quiet place.So now i have to train myself to concentrate on my studies and revise in an so called "happening place". But,i still don't regret for moving here because all my housemate here are kind,helpful,sometimes funny ~ there is no PERFECT thing in this world.I have kind housemates but at the same time i lost a silent and quiet place to study and also some girl's privacy, but as long as i have a group of good friends here and they treat me well, i'm quite satisfied already..
Lastly,to my housemates who will be sitting for their final in August,i hope that you guys will score flying colours in your result and find a better job in future~~ KAm Ba teH guys~! =)

~ aBt QueENie ~

WeLL~This is mY firSt Blog in mY liFe.. I'm noT goIng to IntroduCe mYselF heRe coZ yoU caN viEW frOm my prOfILe heRe anD i HaVe inTroDuCed mYseLf In maNY timEs aT taRc aND iN e-learNing(tireD already~ =P).. WhaT i caN teLl yoU iS i caN bE veRy naUghTY aNd noiSy whEn i'm in GoOD moOd (eNergetiC).. I alsO caN bE veRy quiET whEn i'M slEepy~! Yup,yOu caN conSideR me aS pIg o caLL mE piGGy heRE~ This iS whaT mY FrienDs wHo alwaYs saY sO~ In faCt,i liKe piG muCh anD alsO haPpy iF yoU caLl mE sO,becaUsE PIG arE cuTe anD clEver acTuaLly~~ =PActuaLLy,mY hoPe iS caN enTeR LoCal uNI wiTh mY goOD frienDs aT homeTown but iT woN't b haPPen becAuse mY gaNg aLl goT diFfeRenT Uni anD i goT UNIMAS,the MosT faR diStanCe frOm mY hoMetOwn..aNd whaT is sCiencE cOgNitiVe abOut? caN soMebodY teLL me?thIS is thE UNIMAS ofFered tO me?? whAT a "gOOd couRSE"~!HoW maNY goOd frieNds dO yOu reAlLy coUld haVe??Don't yoU thiNK thaT it's cOmpliCateD In aLl kiNd ReLationSHip? YeS,i nEed to adMit thaT acTuaLLy beFoRe i staRtEd mY foRm 6 liFe,mY minD arE stIlL veRy iMmatuRe anD i knEw thaT maNy peOpLe diSlike mE espEciAlly giRls iN mY seCondARy scHoOl.. MAnY oF mY gOod frienDs alSo starTed frOm thoSe wHo diSliKe mE aT thE firSt.. Thy toLd mE tHaT mY FaCe doeSn't loOk liKe a KInd girL,fiErCE anD eTc~~ BuT,tiS iS mY loOk,i caN neVer chanGed iT unLesS go FoR plasTic suRgerY buT noT tHat neceSsary.. So i stARted chaNging mYseLf becOme moRe oPtimISt eVen taLkatiVe o noIsY alsO wOn"t caRe,beCOme mORe prO-acTiVe tO knoW neW friENds.. MaYbE i"m thE yoUngeSt iN mY faMily.ThiS maKe mE scArE aloNe becAUse whEn i waS smALl,mY paRenT buSy worKing anD mY siBbling alsO stuDy aT schOol,eveRytimes wheN i baCk frOm KindeRgarDEn,mY mUm jusT leFt mY lunCh thEre sO i haVe to sTAy aT hoMe anD waIt theM baCk.. BuT luCky i'm boRned wiTh haPpy gO lucKy chaRacTer,iF noT i tHiNK noW i wiLl bE alonE or haVinG leSs friendS.. =PAcTuaLly,i'm losT noW~ i thInk thaT it's harD to DecidEd ouR fuTurE.. sOmetiMes i'm asKing MyselF thaT doEs BusiNesS coURse reaLLy is My favourIte? anD i know it's noT~! I disLikE to woRk aT oFFiCe buT i'M studYing ICSA ( fuTure seCretaRy),i caN preDicT mY duLL oFFiCe liFe iN fuTurE.My maIn amBitioN iS ModeLing,althouGh i'm noT taLL anD dON't havE gOod boDy figuRe enOUgh.. But i've gaiNed coNfiDenT onCe i on thE stAgE,It's a GreAt exPerieNced tO beIng a paRt tiMe moDEl aT mY hoMetowN~LasTly,i Hope yoU aLl woN't be yawNing whIle viewIng mY bloG coZ iT's jusT mY stoRY anD maY bE boring tO reaD thRouGh... buT stILl apPrecaiTe sO mucH becAuse i'm wrtiIng thiS iN sick condiTion.. AnYwaY,i wIll kAM ba TeH (woRK haRd) iN taRC~! NIce to knOw yoU guYS alSo.. =)

by QueeNie
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